I dont get sometimes this kind of guy. When he said he is
serious to get married and wanna get to know u better but didnt actually bother
to exert enough efforts to make it works. I am not his subject of entertainment
to occupy his boring day. He always being busy and had a hectic
day. I am freaking busy as well. With my back
to back working schedule, travelling places here and there I am moreee than
hectic the he is claimed to be. But i do have time to text him to tell him my
whereabouts, and even tried to make an effort to make a video call..it was
always me who initiated an efforts to keep him updated..he can just read my
messages without even bother to reply or even bother to apologise when he could
not make it to online last night. I was the one who wide awake waiting for him
to online while sipping my hot cappuccino. The consequences after could not
resume sleeping was craving for foodss...dem..there goes another few kg gained
that night!
I really dont get this man. He really has his unique way to
make woman feel ‘appreciated’. I dont ask for ur money, i dont look on ur
family background or even care how handsome u re, ur degree or what so ever..those material traits are not important to me. If i want money i
have many guys that earn more than you. Even their salary is 5 times higher
than u. I will be in clover for the rest of my life if I marry any of them.
Though they are not as handsome as you, but who cares..money do can buy you
diamond and new clothes right?
Unfortunately, my heart is not yearn for all of that. What i
want from you is just you to perform prayer 5 times a day. Nothing more or
less. I want husband that can lead me in pray. A husband that can admonishing
me and help me to become a better servant of Him. That’s all i need. Money,
beauty, education, status..are all temporary. None of that are matter to me. The
outward is not important to me. What matters is my deen. My faith comes first. There
is a Syariah boundary that I will not go beyond just to get you. I am not gonna
chasing you if that is what you are up to. It is not because of repercussions
of my ego but because my pride as a Muslimah that I choose to believe in my
fate and accept the Qada’ and Qadar that have been written for me. If something
is meant for me, it will not miss me, but if it is not than Alhamdulillah,
Allah has a better plan for me.
I guess I am not a perfect match for you. I am pretty sure
InsyaAllah, one day He will meet u up with your half of deen. And same goes to
me as well. I know Allah has created one fine man for me. Even if it is not in
this duniya, he is waiting for me in the Jannah. InsyaAllah.
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